EVERY mom should read this!!!

There is a blog I follow that the creator posted this message about being a mom. Being a mom of a 1 year old and being 5 months pregnant I have been scared to go through the whole newborn thing again. Reading this helped me feel a little more calm and remind me that I am not the only one.....

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Open letter to a new Momma

Today we celebrated the upcoming birth of a new baby boy. The mom-to-be is one of my last friends to have their first child, and there is something so incredibly special about that. Something so special you just don't get when you are pregnant with that first baby. You wonder why everyone has constant big goofy smiles, fluffing all over you and can't keep your hands off your belly. :)

And then you have that baby. And you know.

So Momma B., this is what I hope you remember over the next few weeks:

For at least the new two years, probably more, you will have very little control over your life. It starts with labor -- you can't plan it (I know, it killed me too!), you can't tell that little one how or when to come, and you can't control how the labor will go. All you can do is relax, let go, breathe, and realize you have to give it up to the people that know best...the nurses, your doctor, God.

After the baby is here, you will have zero control over your life because that itty bitty patootie will rule. your. world. You will feel exhaustion like you've never known. You will want to give your right arm for a few straight hours of sleep. You will have to plan to leave the house well ahead of time. And when you do leave the house, it will be 30 minutes later than you had planned.

Speaking of sleep, even the best sleepers (ours slept through at FIVE weeks) will drive you absolutely mad at times. They will sleep three hours at a time for a few nights...sleep for six one night...you will get on your knees thanking God...and then that next night they will will wake up every two. It is a bit maddening. There are also nights when they just don't want to sleep, thank you very much. They would rather just lay there staring at you, thank you again.

Because of this, there may be times you will look at your child at 3 a.m., begging him to PLEASE JUST GO TO SLEEP. You may not even like him much at those moments. YES -- I said it, there are times you just are not nuts about them for being itty bitty and helpless and ruling your world (at 3 a.m. nonetheless).

And then that moment passes, and in the middle of the night, you will look at your baby's sweet eyes in the dark, rub his tiny head and you may just cry because you are so incredibly blessed to have this child. To be rocking this child at 3 a.m. You will realize there is no place you would rather be, ever.

You will be overwhelmed at how people love your baby. Yes, you know your friends love you. But you will realize you didn't have a clue how much they love you until you see the way they love your child. You will realize how much you mean to the people around you, because of the way they love your baby. It will overwhelm you, the love you will feel in those first weeks.

A few weeks after that sweet bubby is born, you will start needing a little somethin'. Just a little -- a little something in return for all that feeding, loving, feeding, smooching. And then. THEN, your child will smile at you. YOUR CHILD. He will smile at you like you are the sun and the moon and the stars and it will be one of the best moments of your entire life.

You will spend the rest of your days trying to get your child to smile at you like that again.

One of the biggest changes I noticed after our son was born was the new "weight" of being a Mom. It's the best way I can explain it. It's like the weight of the world is on your shoulders, in a good way. You now have a life to look after, and that is a really big deal. Sometimes that weight is really noticeable. You will feel it all the time -- but mostly when you leave the baby with Daddy for an hour. Or with Grandma for an evening so you can go out with friends.

From the day that baby is born, you are ALWAYS, ALWAYS thinking about them, worrying about them, wondering about them. You may not realize it, but it's always there. That weight lessens as they get older, but it's only because you get used to it. You are now a Mommy, and that comes with so much wonderful responsibility.

Your life is about to change for the better. You will never be the same. You will come back and read this a few months from now and have a whole new appreciation for these words. And when someone you love has their first baby, you will try to express to them the crazy, indescribable love they are about to feel, and you won't be able to put it into words for them either.

You are about to meet the love of your life, and I am so happy for you.

Bunco

SO.... in about a week I have a Bunco night to go to. I'm so excited about it. It's 80's themed! I really want to dress for the occassion and go all out! My only problem is I have short hair!! Any ideas of how to do it?? Or suggestions for the outfit!!

Love it...

So I saw this and had to put this on our blog.

STREAKER!

The other day Dax's Grandma gave Dax a bath at our house. He loves to be naked after the bath and he decided he wanted to run out the front door as I was sweeping.... He sure isn't a shy boy!

And the Baby is....

After going in for an ultra sound on Monday and the babies legs were crossed we still didn't know what the baby's gender is. I went in again today to have them check and I was so sure it was a girl! I had this gut feeling and then this pregnancy has been totally different. Not too sick, not throwing up every day like I did with Dax, but that means absolutely nothing! Dax is going to have a little play mate, a best friend, and a little brother. We are so excited for him!!!!

Ultra Sounds

I figured that since we will be finding out what we are having on Monday that I better post the ultra sounds from the past. One I was 13 weeks but measuring 12, the other ones I was 15 weeks. And of course I was too early at my last one for them to give me a for sure answer, I had to wait, until I am about 19 weeks. It is killing me to find out! I wish I could go find out right now!! I always have a hard time seeing what is what in the ultra sounds until I am pretty far along. I think it's because they look like little aliens! One is of the body's profile, and the other are the face and feet. When we go home Cole always has to point out what is what! So... Any guesses of what we will be having??

Quite a Ride.....

I decided to write a post about this because it was the SCARIEST thing that has ever happened to me and I do not want to forget about it and how I felt. I'm not the greatest at writing in a journal so I figured this is the best I would probably do. July started off as a busy month. Since finding out I was pregnant I have had many doctor appointments. I had to gone to Salt Lake for some, and multiple doctors here. We also moved out of my parents and into a townhome, which we are SO thrilled about. It's hard previously living in our home that we owned to a smaller place. BUT we have a pool and a back yard and we are closer to all of our friends. But back to the story. The week after we moved in I was still going to my mom's house about every day to pick up things we had left there. I had an OB appointment in the morning and figured I would run over to my mom's, who was watching Dax, eat my lunch, and get a couple of things and head home. On the way home is was past lunch time so I stopped at Taco Bell and picked up some lunch. I ate when I got to my mom's but threw it all up. I didn't give myself any insulin since I didn't keep anything down. Dax was laying down for a nap, and with throwing up I didn't feel well and thought I would too. I laid down next to the room Dax was sleeping in, so when he woke up and cried, I would hear him. The next thing I know I hear men talking. I open my eyes and see a room full of strangers. In uniforms. The Paramedic asked me my name, what year it was, who the president was, and if I knew what had happened. I couldn't answer any of his questions. After a few minutes he asked again what my name was, I said "Kim". I looked over and there was a man with brown hair holding my hand. I assumed it was Cole. Nope, it wasn't Cole though- but I still thought it was. It was actually another paramedic who had put an IV into my hand. The paramedic then asked if I knew who some people were. It was my mom and Dax. Thankfully I knew who they were. I panicked because I didn't know where I was,what time of day it was, and anything that had happened earlier that day. He then asked if I knew how far along I was with my pregnancy. I thought to myself " I'm pregnant? Oh yeah.... I AM pregnant!" And then panicked even more. The paramedic then explained what had happened. My blood sugar had gotten so low and I no one could wake me up. They continued working on me as I was in such a nervous state. I was in shock. My temp was very low and they had to warm me up. All I could think about was "I can't believe I let this happen to me. I never wanted this to happen and did everything I could to prevent this. It had never happened before. I felt like such a horrible person and mother." I then looked around and realized there were the Santa Clara Police, Firemen, and EMT's. I felt very safe and just laid back. I still couldn't even count how many people were in one room. They then asked me if I needed to go to the hospital. I was still in shock, cold, a little out of it, and so worried about the baby-that I had forgotten about. They then took me to the hospital. I had never taken a ride in an ambulance. It was quite interesting! It was actually very interesting! The EMT that was monitoring was SO nice and helpful. His name was Greg Leavitt. He made me feel so calm. I then was at the hospital where my Dad and Cole met me. I had to stay for a couple hours and then was released. My mom told me that she had gone upstairs because Cole was on the phone and wanted to talk to me. I guess I took the phone and put it up to my ear while I was laying down but still had my eyes closed to didn't say anything. My mom couldn't get me to respond. She told Cole that we would call back! Then she knew what had happened because I she saw sweat dripping off my face, which happens when your sugars get very low. She tried putting honey and jam in my mouth, anything that she could try to get down me. But I was gagging and acting like I was going to throw up so she called 911. That was the scariest day of my life. I am so thankful I was at my mom's when it happened. If I were home alone who knows what could have happened. I may not be here, I may have lost the baby, and who knows what would have happened to Dax. I am so thankful for friends and family who care about me and help me. This has truly been a hard pregnancy because I seem to be more sensitive to insulin and have had many scary low blood sugars. I'm just thankful that the baby, me, and Dax are ok. I will post the pictures of the last 2 ultra sounds I have had soon!

Baby Update

Well.....my how time flies when you already have a baby following you around and keeping you on your toes! Tomorrow I'll be 9 weeks. I have a hard time going week by week and when people ask me what my due date is. I never go the full 40 weeks, with Dax I was 34 weeks when he was delivered. They never let diabetics go that long. They usually end up inducing you around 36 weeks. If you calculate 36 weeks instead of 40, I would be due December 18th. I just hope I don't have a christmas baby, which there is a pretty good chance! I have just been telling people that Dax will have a new brothe or sister by the end of the year. Now I just worry about all the RSV and sickness with newborns in the winter months. I need to stop worrying and just think that what are the chances of my water breaking again and going 6 weeks early??? Who knows! I just cannot believe that our little bean already looks like a polly pocket baby! And I hate that I can't button up by pants anymore!! I know I have a little chub, but come on, 3 weeks ago I could zip and button with out a problem. Maybe I should just wear my old maternity pants and face that I am pregnant, and I will be getting fat, or I AM getting fat. :) Next week I have my 10 week appointment, before I am technically 10 weeks though, and I believe I am getting another ultra sound, so I will keep you posted! YAY!

BUNCO

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Last night the girls got together to play some Bunco, the first night of this Bunco group. It was so fun!!! We ate lots of good food, laughed a lot, and prizes were won. The group was awesome! In the picture top to bottom, left to right are Myndi, Marissa, Jenny, Sam, Annaleese, Claudia, Chelsey, Erin, Me, Dacia, Stacey, and Alice. Thanks for coming!

Family Pictures Post!!

YAY! I got a sneak peek of what is to come! Alecia posted these pictures and more on her blog. I L-O-V-E them!!!! I wanted to share! AND you should totally have her take your pictures!